[Verse 1]
Waking up to yet another day at work
Thinking of traveling, hours won't pass
And the tedium of it all, claws away at your nerves
Carrying the stress back home and then reverse

How often have you sat there wondering what it's worth?
The fridge needs filling, you watch liars on TV
Make a killing, while telling you what you don't deserve
Insecurities are reinforced, by seeing cars

And the many allures of all the rich people's perks
And envy becomes your motivator, looking down
Upon others who don't share your views, you go and get the paper
Consequences are dealt with later, you call it moving on

The cycle repeats, former close people now wanna be
In your position with their hands out, on your way
Up and down, usually the same people you'll meet
Ambitiously you're treating wants as needs, steady losing sleep

[Hook]
Insomnia taking me
Dark thoughts and desires keep waking me

I deal with it everyday, you see
It slows me down, close friends losing faith in me

Can't tell me where I'm going wrong
I'm headstrong, I'll deal with it on my own

Years pass, still up on the same road
Thought I know it all, but never knew I gotta let go

[Verse 2]
Some people fight their own healing process
Running from the darkness they refuse to acknowledge
Staring in the mirror while hating what they see
Because others won't approve, mean words go deep

You've opened up your heart for the very first time
And the reward was a dagger from behind
Was ready to move and put it all on the line
Or so you thought, because commitment wasn't really on his mind

Fear of men setting in after the fact
Offered comfort you refuse out of pride, pushing away
People who love you, in spite of what you put them through
Wondering why they stick around, seeing what is good in you

All they really want for you's to overcome the hurdles
Escape the escapism, you argue it hurts so much
And it does, you want to go back to the person
That you was, be the love you never had instead, or else...

[Hook]

[Verse 3]
I'm no better, lingering resentments towards women
Have hindered me tremendously, when coupled
With conflicting urges, like me questioning my purpose
When and what to invest in whom, for what it's worth

I learned to forgive, drop grudges, and see the beauty
In others, despite my own insecurities, suffering
From the random bouts of depression, I referenced so often
Nevertheless, I make an effort to involve them

In friendship, I'm there for them, despite often feeling lonesome
Learned to accept my flaws, and strive to love wholesome
Harder on myself than necessary in order
To transform into a version of me I never showed one

Full of confidence, yet humility
Loving you regardless if you're long gone or still with me
Speaking my mind with compassion, yet no filter
And revel in everything about me that's off-kilter

But instead I'm writing this...